An update and apology from PopsD

Dear friends on The Crit Pit and GDF,
In 2018 my cancer came back a second time. I became discouraged and depressed. I stayed that way until February of this year. Unaware of how deep my depression was, during that time I was getting angry at the smallest things (I called it “Taking peoples heads off”) This was totally out of character for me. I knew it was happening but I couldn’t stop it. My GP doctor tried several antidepressants for me, but nothing helped.

During that time on GDF my comments on the forums must have sounded very harsh. I am so sorry and ask for forgiveness of any and all that I might have offended on the forums at the time.

In February this year I finally started listening to my wife, family, and friends who all had been trying to point me towards getting professional help. Disgusted with myself, I finally agreed, then sought out and found a wonderful psychologist and genetic medication specialist.

The genetic testing revealed that I really needed a totally different medication. And my psychologist started my weekly sessions in March.

I am happy to report that now (in September) my new medications are working perfectly and my weekly counseling sessions have been highly effective. I now feel more like my old self—happy, content, and alive again!

I trust that my comments on GDF will be more normal and positive now. I do love helping people again and I look forward to helping many more.


I don’t remember feeling bad from your comments.

I’m glad you’re feeling better.

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I’m so glad you are feeling better Pops! Cancer can take a toll in so many ways. Sending a big virtual hug :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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I’m so sorry about your predicaments PopsD, but am glad that you’re feeling better.

As for your attitude, like @Joe, I never felt anything out of the ordinary. I think I stepped on more toes everyday just by saying “Good Morning”!

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@PopsD, offline, you might have been an irritable monster, but here you’ve always been a model of politeness and civility. :grinning:

I had never heard of a genetic medication specialist, so I had to look it up. I found there are MDs called geneticists. Interesting.

In any case, I’m very happy you found a good combination of treatments that are working. People always recognize the problems directly related to serious physical ailments, such as cancer or heart disease, but I think they often fail to fully appreciate the debilitating emotional and psychological turmoil that often accompanies them.

By the way, thank you for being a forum member here. I seriously mean that!

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I found out from my psychologist that anytime someone undergoes radiation treatment every day for more than three months the likelihood of major depression is virtually certain.

I had daily radiation for five (5) months. It led to a very serious case of Unipolar Depression that caused both chemical (changes in my brain chemistry) and physiological changes (effecting my thoughts, emotions, and behavior). Which without professional help and medication is virtually impossible to overcome.


Just-B, thank you and all my other forum friends for your kind feedback. It means so much to me. And I’m glad that, as far as the forum goes, that I covered it well.

And yes, the Access Wellness Group, the group of doctors of psychologists I that are helping me do have one doctor whose sole function is to do genetic testing to determine which pharmaceutical (s) (out of the 35 drugs available, are the most likely to be the most effective for each patient.

Like I said before, the main problem with me was determining which medication(s) would work best for me, and the good news was they positively new the correct ones (after testing) that began to make a change for me within the first two weeks. Thank God!


Thanks for the hugs, Red!

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Hardly! I am usually far more brusque and abrasive in my responses to stupid questions than you’ve ever been and I don’t have the excuse of the hell-and-back you’ve been through.

I’m so sorry to hear of all the rubbish you’ve been dealing with, but very glad things are finally going the right way. That’s been a seriously long-haul fight for you.

I’m glad you’re getting the right meds and that you’re doing better. The journey through cancer is always tough, and you are dealing with it as best you can. That’s all anyone can do.

Yeah, no apologies necessary. So sorry to hear all that you’ve been going through.

Thanks Steve, I feel you are a good friend and your comments encourage me. I was back in the hospital again last week when my blood pressure tanked, but I choose to stay in good spirits.

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