So I’ve been out of the Graphic Design field for 3 years now. Actually, I’ve never really had a full-time graphic design position because I gave up on it without really trying or pushing myself hard enough. I didn’t have a good experience with both of the internships that I had. It was a lot of put downs, verbal abuse, and emotional abuse, which left me feeling broken. I was already dealing with enough stress with graduation approaching and trying to finish all of my projects for my porfolio show. I also was dealing with burnt out, fatigue, depression, self-doubts, and lack of motivation and inspiration. So I thought my internships will help me with that, but they didn’t.
I now realized that I didn’t have to believe all the lies and negative comments that was being presented towards me by certain people at both of my internships, but it’s quite hard to do when you already have been struggling with low-self-esteem, low-confidence, and not believing in yourself, your abilities, and capabilities. Fast forward to now after sevreal sessions of counseling and trying to change my perspective of myself and my life, I would like to get back into the field of Graphic Design and actually be confident this time, believe in myself, and be ready to conquer what life throws at me. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks once again.