So I’m here today to get any advice of something that I did about 4 years ago. So I was struggling emotionally and mentally after graduating from the Art Institutes with a BFA in Graphic and Web Design. I felt lost and didn’t feel like I was good enough to become a professional graphic designer even though I’ve received my degree and worked my ass off in order to get the degree. I remember it like it was yesterday, I’m in my bedroom on my computer and I get a call from one of the recruiters that came to my portfolio show, most of the people that came to my portfolio show that day seemed indifferent to my work, so I wasn’t sure if anyone really liked anything I had to offer, but this recruiter seemed to think differently.
So I answered the call and the recruiters on the other line mentioned how much they liked my work and was wondering if I would like to come in for a job interview, I thought about it at first and felt very pleased and excited then I started to feel anxious and realized that they will soon find out that I’m not good enough, my skills are lacking, and that I’m probably not creative enough. So because of my Imposter Syndrome feelings I unfortunately declined the job interview and told them that I had already had a job, which was nothing more than a part-time job working at a community college at the time, which I ended up hating with every fiber of my being and left the job for another part-time job that I ended up hating again, but that’s a whole other story.
Fast forward to 4 years later and I still regret declining that interview offer, was my self-worth that non-existing? Was my self-esteem that damn low for me to decline a simple job interview? Till this day I will never know if they would’ve hired me or not, that was definitely a missed opportunity that could’ve changed my life forever, but I’ll never know.
I realize now when you don’t know your worth, have low self-esteem, and severe insecurities, you most likely settle for things that you don’t deserve in life and ultimately make life harder and more complicated for yourself in the long run.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated on how to deal with past regrets and missed opportunities in life and how to overcome the Imposter Syndrome. Thank You!